We Used To Be Happy. What Happened To Us?

As I was going through the last few posts I wrote here, those entries still makes me smile, at the same time makes me wonder. How did it come to this point where we can no longer see each other in the eyes with love. How?

I know and aware that the past 2 years has been so challenging for both us emotionally. But I tried to not let it cause the break up in our relationship, because trials will always come, so long that there’s love we both can surpass it. It’s us against it.

But it’s now hard to pretend that things are all good between us, yet I’m still hopeful. I want to be there through your ups and downs. But if you don’t need me anymore, I wouldn’t be successful in saving our relationship.

We used to be so inlove, so happy.

All these are just the testing of our faith to each other and to God. Please hold on.

You’re literally a rose, and my hands are holding the thorns just so I can get close to you. I don’t mind as long as you will give us a chance. I know I wouldn’t have to beg, but I’m doing it because I still believe in us.

We were once strangers, then we fell inlove. It’s not hard, just give it a chance.

I’m saying all this, but honestly, in the back of my mind too, I want to let you go.

Of Course, He Knows Me

Yesterday, I shared something to Kris what I thought was a sweet message. So, since for me it is, I was thinking if I share it to him, he would also feel the same, or.. at least find it maybe a little bit nice too?

So I shared it to him, and.. I dunno… I guess he does, but he had already reacted before he showed that he is gratified.

Admittedly, I was itsy-bitsy pissed off.

We were chatting then, so when he took a couple of seconds I sent him a message, I told him “huy pangit (hey ugly)” – its a slang as you know, so sometimes when this word is use, it’s mostly to joke someone, or to sarcastically let out an anger without obviously picking a fight with him.

So I told him “huy, pangit”, what’s funny was his response though,

it made me set free my irritation to him.

“You know, I know you, when you’re angry, you’re already calling me ugly.” he said. And I was like..  laughing about it :D.., but you know what? I felt a trace of joy there, how?

Well, we’re all different, and for me.. those simple words he said means the simplest reason as well yet meaningful one, which is best describe by this quote..

 

It’s sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention.

 

He was able to say that because he had been paying attention to me, and I am elated by it. The idea of Kris knowing when and what makes me angry or happy, is something.

You know, I believe one way you can know if the person loves you, is if he is paying attention to you. People may not always be good at telling how they feel about you, but they will always show you. By paying attention.

It also unlocks the door to understanding. And he who understands, knew exactly how to listen. Which is one way for anyone to accept someone for who he/she is.

❤ Anna

To Catch A Cheater

Two days ago, I was watching on youtube the videos from ‘To Catch a Cheater’, and, as a talkative person that I am, I told Kris about it and given him a scenario like the one I watched, I asked him what would he do? Well, I knew what Kris exactly would do, its just that I want to hear the answer directly from him. So, today, he shared a story with me,

In all fairness to Kris, he is one loyal and faithful person I know. I probably don’t know him 101% nor do I know exactly how he reacts to girls pushing their way to him. But he had given me enough evidence from his actions in the entirety of our relationship that he is what I thought he is. Even if we fight big time, he never tries to get comfort from other girls who obviously likes him. And for the record, there was never a time that I get seriously jealous about other girls. And that makes me proud of my man!

Going back, his story assures me that even if I’m not around, he is someone I can trust. I honestly don’t need a confirmation like this, but this one made me blushed.

#angboyfriendkongfaithful #angboyfriendkongloyal

 

Why He Doesn’t Need A Filter

Who needs a filter?

At lunch break today, Kris and I got to do video call and look at how he looked! I think its cute, so I thought I’d share it.

 

Bulaga!

Bulaga is our way of saying Hi and Hello, it actually replaced it. I thought it gives more smile to the face when someone says Bulaga instead of the usual hi and hello 🙂 Since then, whenever Kris messages me he starts it with Bulaga. hehehe

Update: Why We Have Been Silent?

No we didn’t break up.

I know it’s been past a year since you last read an update about us. We’ve obviously got busy we forgot about documenting those here in our blog. Anyways, there wasn’t any major things happened between us though, it isn’t major when I say we almost break up on March (I think) this year, right? Lol But yeah, we are good together now more than ever. Love Wins 🙂

From March to May, Kris were reviewing for his licensure examination that also took place on June which result is passed. I am proud of him because I saw how dedicated he was, he would put a goal for himself of getting if not 100/100 at least 90% out of the total number of questions, and all those had been paid off. From June 2017 when he came back to Manila he also started taking trainings, while I’m taking my on-the-job training. On August 31, he flew to Spain to join the rest of his crew. Yes. Back to long-distance relationship again, yes.

You know, just on the side, although I should be used to the “goodbyes” and “airport kiss goodbyes” for we’ve been like this since the first time we met, I’m still not, I dunno who does but I guess I’ll never get used to it, I’ll just embrace it when it comes like this one.

By the way, I was thinking when I was writing those updates it sounded as if everyday of those months went smoothly, but no. Actually there came to a point where we didn’t know how to meet both ends of the rope to survive, we were so stretched that Kris had to grab an offer to him even if it is a little less compare to his last offer, but because situation calls for it so our bills wouldn’t get even more behind he accepted it. I wouldn’t say it was a hard time, because I still feel it was bearable and we still have something on the table and I believe Kris also believes the same, it is a little tough, yes, but that’s why we are  thankful to God for all his provisions in our lives and in our relationship.

As of now, we are in the recovering stage, we are much better now with our earnings and like what they say “You’re not broke, it’s called being responsible.”  Kris and I have been practicing this lifestyle of only spending on what’s necessary and putting to the last the “wants”. Sometimes, we would cheat but we make sure that it is within the budget as well and we find it working for us.

This year as well,

• Kris bought us a new house under bank financing not far from where mom’s house is.
• I will be graduating, Yey! It’s my much awaited event for this year.
• I’ve been interviewed by a company here in the Philippines (which I thought was for me because of all the negotiation and talks between the company and myself) I’m not disappointed though because I’d experience the worst situation than this I think, so these stuffs do not even touch the surface of sadness at all.
• Kris is taking care of my eldest nephew’s studies fees and, I for their ‘baons’.
• We are planning to get a car next year if God’s willing – which is one of our motivation for saving.
• The first house has been helpful to get us through some of our financial needs, a total big help, as well as my part time where I also get enough.

I’m happy that we have a new clear target and goal this second quarter of the year and for the year 2018 that’s coming up soon. I can’t wait to see those coming true slowly. 🙂

That’s all for now folks!

❤ Kris & Anna

Waking Up To Your Good Morning Text

“Good morning Bam ko.”  

Waking up to a text msg like this from Kris is something I look forward to everyday.. it gives an instant “made-my-day” to my morning. Though its already a habit in our relationship to wake up to a good morning msg from each other and falling asleep to our cheesy goodnight iloveyou’s line. I can’t express enough though how nice it was to wake up every day knowing that someone loves you.  Each time I read a message from him it makes me feel so happy because I know that I’m the first thing on his mind before he goes on getting busy for the day and it feels so gooodd.. And speaking of him, he just texted me to take a medicine for my upset stomach and ofcourse an I love you. 🙂

This entry is very random that its all what I wanted to say. I’d like to just radiate the happiness that I felt this morning once again. Aside from the fact that I thank God for giving me another chance to see the blessings of this morning, getting a msg from Kris made me even more thankful to Him.

xoxo